Amazing Grace

I knew the minute I saw him it was on. Cam. His name rhymes with damn for a reason.

I've known Cam for a while. I was surprised to see him at my family's cookout yesterday. So very pleasantly surprised.

His dreds are 8 years long and looked amazing. He looked amazing.

We've had a thing for each other for years but time and circumstances never allowed us to come together. At one point he had a girlfriend, then I had a boyfriend, then we both moved out of Ft. Wayne. Last night, we easily slipped into the pattern of our friendship--talking about music (mostly hip-hop), crackin' jokes, and giving each other the eye. He even showed some lyrics and let me listen to some music he's been working on. But you know what got me? The thing that sealed the deal? His freestyle. That may sound dumb to some people but if you have a love for good hip-hop, real hip-hop, then you can understand and respect a dope freestyle when you hear one. And that my friends, is why he's called "Amazing Grace". It's crazy to think how many dope rappers out there will never get signed...but I digress. Back to the cookout...

I wanted him, but didn't want to make the first move. I just sort of played along to see where things would go. And, I admit I was having some mixed emotions about the whole thing because I was in a very serious relationship with one of his best friends for about 5 years, but that ended like 3 1/2 years ago but still I didn't wanna come off as some ho who was tryna run through him and his crew.

When the cookout was over...food eaten, fireworks done, hours of flirting and vibing with him, I was still too nervous to make a move. I gave him a hug, said "It was nice to see you". He walked away from my car and at first, I thought, "well, that's that" but before I could drive away he knocked on my window. "I'm tryna roll with you", was all I needed to hear. I didn't say anything, I just unlocked the door.

The rest is history.

Today, I can't stop smiling.