Hello Inspiration

I met a guy recently. Well met isn't exactly right--we "met" over the phone and haven't seen each other in person yet (talk about deja vu). We've talked almost every night for a little over a month, sometimes for hours at a time. It's strange how immediately we "clicked". To say that we have many things in common is an understatement.

His presence in my life and my sudden need for him sort of blindsided me. Here I was floating along, flirting with this one, considering that one...then he, like a battleship, blows all competition out of the water. I was never one to keep a "little black book", but after a few farewell phone calls and delete, delete, delete--the names list in my cell phone menu now only includes family, friends (platonic), and him. "My favorite mistake" no longer a prospect, and apparently bitter at that fact, had nothing but words of doubt. In so many words he said I'm just looking for something I'll never find with anyone but him. He says he'll wait until I've "dated enough" and figure out what he already knows--that we're destined to be together. In the past his words would've made me question my choices, but I think I've managed to successfully pull away from his influence and do something in my own interest.

And what a good thing I have done. This guy has to be the most positive, most resilient person I've ever met. My bad days become good when I talk to him. He makes me think of the future in a more positive light instead of my usual cynicism. More than once I've thought, "He's such an amazing person".

I'm not head over heels (yet), and I am being cautious. Everything looks perfect from far away, right? It does suck that I've found yet another long distance interest. Which ultimately still leaves me alone but I guess the man of my dreams just doesn't live in Indianapolis.

Only time will tell where this thing will go. For now, that falling feeling is a welcome change.